Actress in role of Sally Hemings |
A year before Thomas Jefferson’s death, in 1825, Sally Hemings began a serious discussion with the man she had lived with for many years and for whom she bore six children. Much of what appears below was hinted at over the years.
Sally Hemings: So
many years under the same roof and so many meals we shared and sometimes I still
feel like a stranger.
Thomas Jefferson:
How could you feel like a stranger when I’ve given you all that the law permits
over the years?
Sally: I want to
call you Thomas but I am a feared that it might slip out in front of company.
Jefferson: We
have lived many years together. You have nothing to fear.
Sally: I was but
a girl when you first held me. I was afraid then—oh so terribly afraid.
Jefferson: Did
you not want me to hold you?
Sally: It was not
my choice. I knew little of life and had no thoughts of what you wanted from
me.
Jefferson: Let me
ask you again. Did you not want me to hold you?
Sally: Later as I
grew older, I was sure that I wanted you. First because it made me proud to be
the woman the master of the house desired. Mostly though, I saw no wrong in
giving you my love.
Jefferson: In the
eyes of slave owners like me, there was no wrong in using slaves as we wished.
It was not until years later during my presidency that, in
coming into the company of men who favored abolition, I had a glimpse of
another side to slavery.
Sally: Is that
why you treated our children differently than the children of slaves?
Jefferson: The
four children of the six who were fortunate enough to live beyond childhood
were all made free. It was your desire and mine as well.
Sally: You never
asked me if I wanted to be free like my children.
Jefferson: Of
course not. When my wife died, did I look for another spouse? No, because you
were my wife and I needed no one else. Please, Sally you worry me when you
speak as you do.
I have always treated you as my daughter. Never did I buy Patsy
a gift without buying you something as well.
Sally: It was not
the generosity that was lacking. In part it was the look of our son Madison as
he silently watched us both. His eyes would be saying: “Mother, I am free but
you will never be.”
Did he wonder if I would stay with Thomas Jefferson if I had
the choice?
Jefferson: I
would never open the door wide and expect you to leave. This is your home and
you are my wife for as many years as I have yet to live. The thought of your
leaving me would hurry me to death. I am perhaps guilty of many things as a
human being but insincerity in my love for you is not one of them.
Sally: Do you
love this aging woman at your side as much as that young girl of sixteen who
trembled in your arms?
Jefferson: With
all my heart.
When Jefferson died in 1826, Sally did not become free but became the property of Jefferson's daughter Patsy but she lived with her two sons Madison and Eston. Her death came nine years later, never having had a single breath of freedom. She lies in an unmarked grave.
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